The power of love

The first cuddle

A very special day today, my first cuddle with Lily.

Lily was stable enough today to come out of her oven and into the arms of Mummy.

Mr T did her cares (face clean to get goopies off, nappy change and temperature check) and then she was prepared for her cuddle.

Words can’t describe the incredible bond you innately seem to have with your child, it is just beautiful. I thought I would cry more, but instead felt a feeling of calm as I got to hold our gorgeous baby. I didn’t expect to be able to hold her quite so soon, and was almost a little bit scared.

As soon as her warm little body touched my skin I felt healed and Mummy like, this is what I had been waiting for…

I could feel her chest pumping, as the tubes delivered oxygen to her lungs, her tiny feet wriggling under the blanket placed on top if us, and her miniature hand wrapped itself around the tip of Mr T’s finger, as she gave it a squeeze. She opened an eye every now and then to have a peep at us, but kept fairly still. She was so calm and peaceful, dribbling all over my chest, and her oxygen dropped to 21% while we were cuddling. She was happy and coping really well!

I was able to have a long cuddle, putting her back in the oven after 2 hours. Once returned to her incubator, she was super calm, still and sleepy.

Today was a special day no doubt, and the first of many more cuddles to come hopefully. Lily is proving herself to be quite the trooper and getting stronger. Today she had gained a little of the weight she had lost after her first few days, is on reduced oxygen, the antibiotics is bringing her infection down and there have been no reports back from the lab on the fluid they collected which is a good sign.

It was just the pick me up I needed today, after feeling a little down over the last couple of days.

The power of love is strong and cannot be underestimated. We felt like a family today, safe and secure in each other’s company we sat looking at each other, lost in an aura of bliss and completely content; just Mr T, Lily and me.

A family of three, connected by a bond so strong (and quite a few tubes, drips and pipes).

That’s the power of love….

Dreams are like angels

They keep bad at bay

Love is the light

Scaring darkness away

I'm so in love with you

Make love your goal

The power of love

A force from above

Cleaning my soul

Flame on burn desire

Love with tongues of fire

Purge the soul

Make love your goal